I think I might go through all my old stuff and lock it down. Keep it, but who needs that depressing stuff all the time.
For now, hope y'all have a great year!
- Where I'm at.:home - room
- I'm feeling...: accomplished
- Tunes! :Ugh... Some nicleback song on the radio... ewwww...
So, the other day I came to a fairly sad realization. Well, not really, because I'm not living in Afghanistan and I'm not about to have a hurricane knock down my door or anything, but it's fairly sad none-the-less. I'm not happy. I think the only time I've really been happy and not just... floating, is my second year of school when the classes were challenging me but I was still proud of my work and I had friends that loved me for who I am and enjoyed doing things that I did and always grinned when I walked into a room. I miss my friends that I only knew for a year more than I missed people I've known for several. I realized that that might say something about my current relationships and how my friends know me, yes, and love me, but with my friends from last year, I could just be happy and crazy and myself around them because I knew that's how I felt and that's how I am. I feel like with some of my friends now... that we're drifting apart. And while I'm still myself around them, I don't have the energy or, perhaps, motivation to be all of myself with them. I feel... drained. And considering I spent the better part of 8 months working 5 hours, going to class for 6 hours, then going to the gym and still having the drive to be my full self around the people I cared about, that's saying something. Am I just keeping friendships because they make those people happy and therefore I should keep them? Do I only focus on what would make them happy and not myself? Well, I know that's not entirely true because I told my ex to hit the road when I finally clued in that he was making me miserable, and I knew that would make him unhappy, but he was actively causing me emotional pain. My current situation isn't causing me any sort of pain, but it's also not causing me happiness. But to change my situation would tear apart people I've been around to pieces. These aren't just people, they're the people closest to my heart. Oh I don't know. Maybe I'll read this later and it'll make sense. I'm feeling down, like I said.Also, I realized that I'm not exactly all that smart. Or charismatic. Or brave. Or... Anything, really. I mean. I went to pastry school for two years and failed my final exam. Who does that?!?!? Me apparently. I can't believe I did that, even. It wouldn't have taken much more effort than I'd already put through, but, seriously! What kind of a loser am I? Stuck in a grocery store decorating cakes. Friends that I have to work twice as hard to maintain than they do to keep me around.( Read more...Collapse )/rant
- Where I'm at.:home - room
- I'm feeling...: melancholy
- Tunes! :Terrapin - Bonobo
I have some... life updates?
Firstly... PASSED WITH ALMOST HONORS!!! Actually, it would have been a much higher GPA if I'd been in a different class for the last semester. Oh well. As it stands I finished with a 3.46. WOULD have been a 3.8something but, alas, such is life.
Secondly... I went to England Scotland and Ireland. OMG BEST TRIP OF MY LIFE! Backpacking for three weeks was INCREDIBLE! But I think next time I'll go with a smaller group or on my own. BUT STILL OMG!
Thirdly... I'm not an official baking apprentice yet. Canada Post is being stupid so I won't get my blue book for a while. That's cool though.
Fourthly... STUMBLEUPON! www.stumbleupon.com
You guys. Best thing ever.
So many AWESOME things that I never even knew exsisted!!! SO MANY!!!
Fifthly... NEW COMPUTER IS NEW!! AND AWESOME!!!!
That is all
I was an aires, and most of it suit me, but In the new one I'm a pisces and I feel more of that suits me than aires. However, since the new one doesn't affect people born before 2009, I'm in the clear, I think hahahah
I'm gonna go cry in the shower or something. I hope you guys are having a more pleasant day than I.
- Where I'm at.:Home - Res
- I'm feeling...: Depressio
- Tunes! :Attack - 30s to Mars (In my head)
"What, like a threesome?"
"Ya, but, like, dating"
At this, I raise my eyebrow and go "So?"
The so is this: He thinks that a relationship should be two people only because it's "just not right." I asked him why not and he said the power play is wrong. This got us talking about polygamy and how I think that if it's someone's choice to enter into that kind of relationship. knowing the risks, then it's their choice and it has nothing to do with me.
Then he said "I don't know. Marriage should be one man and one woman intent on starting a family. Like, I don't think gay marriage is right."
"... ... ... Wh- Really?"
"Ya," he says. And his reasoning is this: Marriage gives benifits to couples that are intended for helping raise a family and a same sex couple can't do that. I'm, of course, the first to object, because my cousins' biological moms are married, both girls have the same father, different mothers, and the older one also has her mom from before my aunt and her split up. They're raising a family, right? They're raising their biological children in a family setting, but he still said that they should not have gotten married.
I also know the gay-boyfriend is planning on either surrogating or adopting lots of kids when he gats married, also wanting to raise a family, but WD says that he shouldn't because the whole point of marriage is to have sex and have kids.
He also said that my other cousin shouldn't have gotten married (They raise dogs instead of children), My other cousin shouldn't have (who is physically incapable of having children), my aunt and uncle (who have adult children and fell in love long after they all moved away), and my god parents (Who got married becasue neither wanted children). He also slammed me because I said I was thinking I'd like to adopt kids! Then he got really mad and said that everyone expected him to bow to their oppinions and he wanted to keep his own, thank you very much!
I backed off, let him fume for a bit, and then we changed the topic and everything was hunky-dory again. It's stuck with me though. And his oppinion on relationships really bothers me. Because it restricts people, and I think that is a horrible thing to confine people into little set moulds of what you think is right. If I've learned anything in my years in Fandom, in school, in life in general, it's that being angry when someone refuses to fit into the restrictions that they've put on life in their eyes is pointless. Someone wants to be in a three-way relationship? I don't care, have at 'er. I had a friend who was in one for a while and it didn't change my oppinion of her, she's still one of the best people I know. A woman wants to enter into a polygamous relationship? Good for them, as long as they know the risks, but I've heard of polygamists that have lead long and happy lives together. A couple wants to dom/sub? I don't think there's anything wrong with that. A couple that marry just for the sake of getting married? I have family members like that, that love eachother and don't need a kid in their lives to keep them together! I know families that have split down the seams even with a kid in the picture. To men want to make a commitment to spend the rest of their lives together? Good. They should.
As you can see, this really pissed me off. I'm supposed to be calling azalea_j right mow but I typed this up instead. Don't be mad sweetie!! I called once I was done!
- Where I'm at.:Home - Res
- I'm feeling...: frustrated
- Tunes! :The cave - mumford & sons
Cause I have a plan, right? My plan is to travel the world and work for months and months at a time in different countries. So about a month before I move, I'm going to get a tat of where I was so I have a marker for my travels and my life.
Does any of the few on my f-list think that this is a bad idea?
Also, Big huge exam from monday to wednesday <i><b>I AM SO NERVOUS!!!</b></i>
In other news, nothing :P
- Where I'm at.:home - res
- I'm feeling...: blah
- Tunes! :Kotake & Koume's Theme - Zelda OAT
Is it as annoying to anyone else when, in a summary, someone writes "Sorry, I suck at summaries" or "Story better than it sounds"? If you suck at smmaries, then just take a line fron the story, or give a brief statement. Ususally the summaries that say those things are not bad until that is said. It usually turns me off reading something, does it to anyone else?
Slash: Slash fiction is a genre of fan fiction that focuses on the depiction of romantic or sexual relationships between fictional characters of the same sex. While the term was originally restricted to stories in which male media characters were involved in an explicit adult relationship as a primary plot element, it is now often used to refer to any fan story containing a pairing between same-sex characters, although many fans distinguish the female-focused variety as a separate genre commonly referred to as femslash. The characters are usually not engaged in such relationships in their respective fictional universes.[
Yaoi: Yaoi (やおい)[nb 1] also known as Boys' Love, is a popular Japanese term for female-oriented fictional media that focus on homoerotic or homoromantic male relationships, usually created by female authors. Originally referring to a specific type of dōjinshi (self-published works) parody of mainstream anime and manga works, yaoi came to be used as a generic term for female-oriented manga, anime, dating sims, novels and dōjinshi featuring idealized homosexual male relationships.
See the difference? Pairing Spock and Kirk is not YAOI. It is SLASH. I am really getting sick of that. Yaoi is a term specifically for Japanese works, Slash refers to everything else.I'm going through Merlin fic right now and I cannot COUNT the number of times I've come accross Merlin/Arthur yaoi. Are Merlin and Arthur from a Japanese Manga? No. Then use the proper term, please. It's slash.
I've even seen the same with Kirk/Spock - The ORIGINS of the term slash - have yaoi warnings on them.
Just NO. Please....
- Where I'm at.:Home - Res - Room
- I'm feeling...: frustrated
- Tunes! :Melatef Vemeshaker - Ivri Lider
- I'm feeling...: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH